im not sure if im doing the right decisions.
they are giving mie a choice on staying..and going overseas
and yet watever i chose there's a feeling deep down that is just so very wrong.
going to the states' a really good choice. but i have a feeling that felt really bad? im not sure what it is, is it the feeling where im to lose everything i had here and to go to another stranger's land. is it an influence of family and frens? or the comfortable life i currently have? by going to the states. its just a different thing altogether. im afraid i cant coop with the people . and also loses frens over de years when im there. working.... is out of the question... ......i dun have to choose my majors so early. and den i cant go clubbing..@.@ but i'll have alot of other place to visit, which is gonna be so fun! *dat ofcourse i hav to wait till i hav enough money and frens..*\
If i study locally i felt like im letting a good opportunity slip by. with this lil decision time is not helping at all. i'll think i'll never grow if i never wish to leave my comfort zone. but leaving my comfort zone in such an early age is just frustrating! studying in adp is like.. knowing im being con..and still accept it....and also end up getting angry about it...so its just stupid! zZzz not all the credits are transferable. *i dun hav to think about it if i go over* i can be with my frens... and continue having dramas at home...and den i'll regret i didnt go over cause its freaking noisy....
+ having to know there's family and frens to be there for u whenever u need em.*not like my sis in the states are gonna giv a dam about it*.
These blardy effing decisions..